SHATTERED AND BROKEN

The breeze flows by
Whispering words into my ear
Numbness grips my soul and the Scarry heart skips a beat
The Sun setting down the prairies
Signals the end
When will you come back to me
I am shattered and broken
The Flowers have died
My tears have dried
These wounds will never heal
Unless you touch me
Even in a stone
Lies a heart Soft enough to pardon
Believe me my love,
I am shattered and Broken

THUNDERING WAVES

Grey sky, thundering waves

Wash away all my tears
Give me back the power to trust
Allieviate all of my fears.
I loved a someone with a passion deep;
Yes, deeper than the sea,
Oh! talk to me with your breakers loud
How could this be done to me?
To every ill that stalks this Earth
A cure in nature is found
So speak to me with your watery voice
Why did MY love run aground?

INFINITE SADNESS

What infinite sadness.

What total lack of courage.

What misplaced bravery

I saw in you.

What pain and suffering.

You and your “loving”

Put me through.

FALLEN WISHES

If I could have one lifetime wish, one wish that would come true, I'd pray to God with all my heart, for yesterday...and you... If a tear fell from my eyes each time I thought of you, I would have a puddle of fallen wishes.

Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart... Time goes by, life goes on, and all I can think of is why you're gone.

STILL YOU

STILL YOU

JUST YOU

NO ONE ELSE BUT YOU

ONLY YOU

FLYING ON BROKEN WINGS

HOW COULD AN ANGEL BREAK MY HEART?

ONE

It took just one smile...
One hello...
One handshake...
One drink...
One night...

One heartache...
One soul...
One pain...
One lifetime...

STORM

Strange how I always have to fall for the wrong person at the wrong time...

How despair sets in before the feeling settles...
How a new love calms a storm...while a new one builds up.


Will the vicious cycle ever stop?
Will the pain ever cease?
Will I ever find peace?
Love, pain...will u ever part?
As love departs from me even before it comes...

THERE IS ONLY YOU

NO TIME

NO PLACE

NO RESPITE

ONLY YOU

INVISIBLE MAN

I wish you'd look at me that way

Your beautiful eyes lookin' deep into mine

Telling me more than any words could say

But you don't even know I'm alive

Baby to you all I am

Is the invisible man

EVEN NOW

That even now
When I knew it wasn’t right
And I found a better life than what we had
Even now I wake up crying in the middle of the night
And I can’t believe it still could hurt so bad
Even now when I never hear your name
And the world has changed so much since you’ve been gone
Even now I still remember
And the feeling’s still the same
And this pain inside of me goes on and on

SPANISH GUITAR

A smoky room, a small cafe
They come to hear you play

And drink and dance the night away

I sit out in the crowd

And close my eyes

Dream you're mineB

ut you don't know

You don't even know that I am here

I wish that I was in your arms

Like that Spanish guitar

And you would play me through the night

'Till the dawn

I wish you'd hold me in your arms

Like that Spanish guitar

All night long, all night long

I'd be your song, I'd be your song

Steal my heart with every note you play

I pray you'll look my way

And hold me to your heart someday

I long to be the one that you caress with tenderness

And you don't know

You don't even know that I exist

CHASING LIBERTY

UNREQUITED LOVE

CHASING LIBERTY

So write it down in lover's blood.There's gotta be a better way to break this spell.Send out a search party.Have you forgot how to love or how to die.I see the crosses behind your eyes.When will the fire burn out.Is it after we've covered our tracks.I'm not going to stay to find out.He never asked for much.If the fire burns out will it ever light up again.It's been so long since I've seen your eyes this cold.When did you let them step in.When did you let them take control.So sound the alarm!There's gotta be a better way to break this spell.Tell the whole world that I left without his love at the chiming of the bells.I've been dreaming of elaborate schemes.Thoughts the love was good for a while.It's been much easier to leave.I've got a new life now.This couldn't have come at a worse time.I guess you had to find out about this unrequited love that I deny.You say you fell out of love.Well I call this abandonment!

A LIFETIME PAIN

THE LOVE THAT LASTS LONGEST IS THE LOVE THAT IS NEVER RETURNED.

“The love that lasts longest is the love that is never returned.”

PAINFUL PART OF LOVE

THE MOST PAINFUL PART OF LOVING, IS LOVING SOMEONE YOU CAN NEVER HAVE.

I SCREAM IN SILENCE

I SCREAM IN AGONY.

I SCREAM IN PAIN.

NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE THE SORROW.

I AM SILENCED BY DESPAIR.

ONLY YOU...

YOU ARE EVERYTHING I WANT...

AND YOU ARE EVERYTHING I COULD NEVER HAVE.

Twilight Trailer

LEAD MEE THROUGH THIS PAIN

I FALL ALL OVER AGAIN

I TRY TO PRETEND YOU ARE NOT THERE.

I TRY TO SEEM UNAFFECTED BY YOUR PRESENCE.

I TRY NOT TO SHOW THE PAIN.

I TRY TO HIDE MY EMOTIONS.

I TRY... BUT DEEP INSIDE I CRY.

TODAY YOU WAVED GOODBYE.

I SMILED AND SAID FAREWELL,

THEN MY EYES MET YOURS.

SUDDENLY, I FELT A MASSIVE WAVE OF PAIN RUN THROUGH ME.

VIOLENT PANGS OF SORROW CONSUME ME
I TRY... I KEEP TRYING... YET I FALL ALL OVER AGAIN.

THE PUNGENT STENCH OF FERAL JEALOUSY ENVELOPES THE AIR

Every single day is a torment. I don’t know what I’d find out, what I’d hear… where you have been… who you were with… what you’ve been up to. I struggle through each day; enduring the painful stories I hear. Suffering through the cutting edge blows of jealousy, suspicion and desperation. I look at you and I feel a painful longing; a fierce desire so intense, the air reeks piquant of burning passion and the pungent stench of feral jealousy envelopes the air.

Dawn raptures with anxiety. Dusk falls with an agonizing pining for your love.

THERE IS ONLY YOU.

EVERYTIME I LOOK AT YOU

I used to think that I was strong. I realize now I was wrong. ‘Cause every time I see your face. My mind becomes an empty space. And with you lying next to me, Feels like I can hardly breathe.

I close my eyes, the moment I surrender to you. Let love be blind. Innocent and tenderly true. So lead me through tonight, But please turn out the light. ‘Cause I’m lost every time I look at you.

And in the morning when you go. Wake me gently so I’ll know, That loving you was not a dream. And whisper softly what it means to be with me. Then every moment we’re apart, Will be a lifetime to my heart.

I close my eyes. The moment I surrender to you. Let love be blind. Innocent and tenderly true. So lead me through tonight, But please turn out the light‘. Cause I’m lost every time I look at you. Lost, every time I look at you.

FALLEN (Excerpt from the song)

What is this I’m feeling

I just can't explain

When you're near; I'm not just the same.

I try to hide it, Try not to show it.

Doesn't matter where I am,

Thoughts of you still linger in my mind

No matter what time of day

I've really, really Fallen for you...

LETTERS TO MY SON (Excerpt)

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in our life – the gift of love will come to us in full power, and we take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty.

This is a dream we all share.

More often, it will come and take hold of us, celebrate with us for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happens to us, we often try to grasp the love and hold on to it, refusing to see that it is a gift that is freely given and a gift that just as freely moves away.

REJECTION

I told you…
You are mine…and mine alone
But how can I keep holding on to you
When you don’t want me to keep holding on.

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DESOLATION

The scent of your skin…the smell of your perfume…your sweet breath…the feel of your skin…the sound of your voice…the scorching ardor of your gaze.

There is only you.

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ANGUISH

No respite
No time
No distance
ONLY YOU

TORMENT

You’re so near…yet you are beyond my reach.
You are right beside me…but you seem so far away.
I want you…but you could never be mine.

I'M SO JEALOUS OF LOSING YOU TO THIS WORLD YOU WANT SO BADLY

No, like a dear listening in the wind you strike me still. You have eyes like no other. I sound as stupid as a school boy, but you're everything I care for. And by the sweet breath of Aphrodite I'm so jealous of losing you to this world you want so badly.

I found it in Egypt... the man who sold it to me said it came from a time when man worshiped sun, and stars. I'll always think of you as the sun. And I pray your dream will shine on all men.

HOW MUCH LONGER?

How many young men, in all previous times of unprecedented steadiness, had turned suddenly wild and wicked for the same reason, and, in an ecstasy of unrequited love, taken to wrench off door-knockers, and invert the boxes of rheumatic watchmen!

WATCHING THE LIVING

I sat down upon one of the benches in the park, and rested my head upon my hands. I felt numbed and stupefied. The world and everything in it had changed for me during the last ten minutes. People passed me as I sat - people who laughed and joked and gossiped. It seemed to me that I watched them almost as a dead man might watch the living.

AGONY

Should I smile because you're my friend, or cry because that's all you will ever be?

HOLDING ON TO SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T WANT TO BE HELD ON TO

I am everything you want; I am everything you need; I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be. I say all the right things, at exactly the right time, but I mean nothing to you and I don't know why?

RAGING SEA

"No man knows till the time comes, what depths are within him. To some men it never comes; let them rest and be thankful! To me, you brought it; on me, you forced it; and the bottom of this raging sea, has been heaved up ever since."

"Yes! you are the ruin--the ruin--the ruin--of me. I have no resources in myself, I have no confidence in myself, I have no government of myself when you are near me or in my thoughts. And you are always in my thoughts now. I have never been quit of you since I first saw you. Oh, that was a wretched day for me! That was a wretched, miserable day!"

LOVE ME... HATE ME... BUT SPARE ME YOUR INDIFFERENCE

"I don't ask you for your love; give me yourself and your hatred; give me yourself and that pretty rage; give me yourself and that enchanting scorn; it will be enough for me."

ONE WAY TRAFFIC

Love, unrequited, robs me of my rest: Love, hopeless love, my ardent soul encumbers:Love, nightmare-like, lies heavy on my chest, And weaves itself into my midnight slumbers!

William S. Gilbert

A mighty pain to love it is, And 'tis a pain that pain to miss; But of all pains, the greatest pain is to love, but love in vain.

Abraham Cowley

Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart.

Washington Irving

Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.

Charlie Brown

An act of love that fails is just as much a part of the divine life as an act of love that succeeds, for love is measured by fullness, not by reception.

Harold Lokes

The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.

Anonymous

You never lose by loving. You always lost by holding back.

Anon

My love is of a birth as rare. As ‘tis for object strange and high: It was begotten by Despair. Upon Impossibility.

Andrew Marvell